About me

This is an ever-evolving, totally not comprehensive snapshot of me. Browse it to your heart's content and expect it to change over the months and years as I change and—hopefully—evolve.


Timeline

Things I learned about myself (on a long and winding road)

1) A mallard instead of a falcon

When I was at university, people kept telling me that my true passion will find me. One day, I'll walk into a seminar or a hospital ward and fall in love with a specialty I was meant to pursue for the rest of my life. I just need to be patient.

This moment never came for me—and not for lack of trying.

I could get excited about a topic or specialty, dive into it and get pretty good, but I never got the feeling that the particular thing is the thing I want to do forever. It took a fair amount of work on my self-knowledge to discover that I'm not a specialist.

I'm not a falcon; I'm a mallard. I can walk, swim and fly pretty well, but I'm certainly not the best at any of them. This might sound like a bad thing, but it's actually where my power lies: you can drop me anywhere, and I'll get by just dandily. As a generalist, I can go anywhere and do almost anything.

It took a while to make my peace with this reality and recognize that my toolset is indeed valuable in many situations. Nowadays, I know that I'm precisely the person you need when you want to go from zero to one or create beautiful things at the intersection of separate fields.

When you need a swiss knife instead of a fillet knife, I'm your guy.

2) I like to build things

I may not have a particular field of interest, but I do have one very strong calling: I'm a builder.

It doesn't matter if it's a finely polished essay, an elegant process, or a beautiful UI—I'm happiest when I can create something from nothing.

There are not many things that can make me more content than seeing something I created to give joy to another person.

3) Freedom and trustworthiness

It's a recurring joke among my friends that no matter what the topic is, sooner or later, I'll end up talking about ethics. I'd love to argue with their assessment, but moral philosophy indeed is one of my favorite tools in this world.

One of the best textbooks I read in med school was the Basics of Modern Medical Ethics by Dr. József Kovács. Contrary to the title, it isn't just useful for doctors.

The book convinced me that there is no person without a moral ruleset, and this ruleset influences everything we do, from the most significant decisions of our lives right down to the most minor things we do. Regardless if we realize it or not.

I don't like invisible hands on my wheel, so every few years, I reexamine my values to see what it is that makes me tick. The bottom of the value tree rearranges fairly often, but the top two, most important values have stayed the same for years now. They are freedom and trustworthiness.

I want to be an autonomous, free person whom his companions can trust. There is a lot of other important stuff for me, but when push comes to shove, I'll act accordingly to these two values.